The Universe

A nice easy subject to start with! The universe..... is simply amazing. When you really start to think about it, about the sheer SCALE of it, that you begin to realise how truly insignificant you really are. You are nothing, a tiny, miniscule blip on a vast, infinite and uncaring universe. Whoooah, that was heavy! But, to see what I mean, just try this. Imagine yourself standing in London. Now, zoom out, so that all of London is visible. Already, you are virtually gone. Then zoom out again, so all of Great Britain is visible. Compared to you, Its MASSIVE, isnt it! Zoom out again, to see the whole world. Britain doesnt look so big now, does it? So what does that make you? Zoom out again, and again, until the world is a dot in a sea of twinkling lights. Now, compare that first image of you, with the one you have now. See what I mean? You are NOTHING.

Time

Time...... this is the weirdest thing. The passing of time. You used to be there, and when you were there you could not imagine it being a distant memory, but now it has gone, forever. And all you have as proof it ever happened is a hazy memory, and maybe a photo. This is why I take so many photos. It sounds weird, but I feel I need proof that things really happened, that they are a part of my past, and not mere dreams, or false memories.
And if the past is bad, the future is worse. At the moment, it doesnt even exist. It is.... a potential. A theory. And yet, all the time, it is being created, out of nothing. And then it will go again. And you never even know how much future you have, or what it will hold. But its THERE, this invisible potential, waiting. And it FREAKS ME OUT!!!

Reality

Now we get into Matrix territory. What is reality? What is real? There is no proof of anything, at all. You can only be certain of one thing. That YOU, as a conscienceness, exist. Everything else, EVERYTHING, is simply data fed into the mind, that can be altered or imagined. There is no reality outside the human mind. Imagine this. If someone believes that he was flying, and if simultaneously everyone in the room believes that they saw him fly, then he flew. Whether his feet physically left the ground or not is irrelevant, and also impossible to discover. Its peoples perception that matters.

And it gets worse. You could be totally alone. All your friends, family, people you love, could all be mere hullucinations. How can you prove you are not a brain in a jar somewhere, and the reality you know is not merely some sick fantasy conjured up in your madness? You dont even have to be a brain in a jar. You could merely be a conciousness, floating about in the ether. You see? Its weird. TRUST NOTHING! It could all be a lie.

Death

My greatest fear. Death, or the idea of death, haunts me. It comes from my too logical brain again. I am an athiest, I just don't think the idea of an all-powerful god as something that makes sense. All religion is simply ignorant man's attept to explain things that simply defy explanation. Like death.
However, because of this, I find death as the most horrible thought. I dont believe in re-incarnation, or Heaven, or any of these other after-lifes. I believe..... that you just stop. Cease to exist. Unable to do anything, unable to think. And THAT, for me, if horrifying. Try to imagine not being able to think. Not being able to remember, or recieve senses, or ANYTHING. You cant, can you? You simply cannot imagine it. I would prefer an eternity of pain, to an eternity of nothingness. Because at least you are THERE, to feel the pain. This is also why I consider consiousness to be a curse. For it will one day be removed.
So, I plan to live forever. Care to join me?